Because I really need to post more...

Mud run is scheduled for June 1. No backing out! I have finally progressed past week 5 in couch to 5k and I did 2 8-minute runs today. Yay me! I am doing well with running lately, and have been walking some at lunch as well. All I need to do is add in some weight training 2-3 times a week and I'm set. Still not losing any weight, but whatever. Fuck weight loss. Ima stop worrying about that.

Doing better.

Okay, after that bitchfest I started doing better. Today, for example, I had lunch and wanted a piece if delicious cake I had made afterword. But I wasn't hungry still, so I decided to go for a run, and if I was still craving cake at that point, I would have it. I wasn't! So that was good.
I may still have a piece after dinner, but I will only if I am still hungry and if that is what I'm craving. Small victories.

Doing a mud run when I am sidelined by a little rain?

Okay, today was not a "little" rain. And it's winter still, technically, and cold. So a mud run in June sounds delightful. But training is hard when I really only have 4 days a week to work out. If I miss one, fine. If I miss 2; then I'm going an entire week between runs, and that is not good. I hesitate to progress to weeks 4 and 5 when my runs aren't as frequent as they should be. I did decide to move to week 4, but I am going to stay here until the weather starts getting better. I have nowhere to go to run indoors; not that I'd want to, but it would help keep me from making excuses for not running when I could otherwise be.

Next rant: Fuck food. Fuck it so much.

I am trying, trying, trying to stick to this "thin mentality" thing where you eat what you are craving when you're hungry, and stop eating when you are no longer hungry. Sounds simple, except for when you grew up in a family that doesn't let a little thing like "not being hungry" keep us from eating. So cleaning my plate was always a big deal. Makes it hard to change. I am trying, and getting better, but today I had a massive slip-up and feel fucking terrible. Physically. Like, my stomach is going to explode. What the hell is wrong with me? I was full before I had even finished half of my meal. Did I stop and think how nice it would be to save the rest of that samich for later? Hell no! Tomorrow is a new day, and there's always wine for dinner.

Anyways, I hope there were enough f-bombs for +Edward Maglott and I hope +Katy Vance has some inspiring words for me. Because I have no other readers ;)

Harry potter keeps me going

I just re-read my post from the beginning of the year, and I think I have done well so far. I have Harry potter on the iPod, and that motivates me to run even when it is 20 degrees out. Still not running in the rain, but I see nothing wrong with that.

Now I have awesome new hair, a new pot to cook in, and a fat hound dog that really needs walking! She's always been fat and needed walks, but she's getting fatter and now it's more serious. So, yay, resolutions! I am still trying!

New beginnings

So I am taking all of the weight management shit I've been looking at over break and plan to start tomorrow. I have a billy blanks DVD, p90x workouts, and audiobooks on the iPod. No excuses for not working out!
Food is always going to be my issue. I am working on not "stuffing" myself and only eating until I am comfortably full. Unfortunately I have genetics working against me on my dad's side. I am working on it though. Next, I plan to cook more, not eat out during the week, and have smaller dinners. I get home from work at 930 pm, and I try to go to bed by 11, so I don't need a heavy meal. I think this will be helpful for me. Yay New Years resolutions!

Diets are fattening

Okay. I just started following this blog (like, 30 minutes ago) called "diets are fattening." I love it already. I am going to try to focus on some of what she says. Basically, you have to train your body to eat like a thin person (one who stays thin naturally) and 1. eat when hungry. 2. stop when not hungry but not "full." 3. Only eat food you like. And so on and so forth. Everything I read makes sense. I don't do the "fad" diets, I have only tried the diet plans that are ways of living and not "diets" but that still tell me what I can and cannot eat. This is better.

When I first started working for BRCC, I lost like 10-15 lbs and wasn't really dieting at all. I can't remember how I did that. I know I started walking at lunch (a habit I need to resume) and I hadn't previously done that, but I really don't think I did any kind of diet or anything. Maybe I was eating like a thin person and didn't even know it! I do know I need to get a handle on my appetite. I can sit down on a sunday morning and eat an entire bag of chips just because I feel like it. Was I hungry? No. So why, then, did I eat? Shit like that.

SO here we go again. I am going to continue running though! Except I didn't today because I had planned to run at lunch but then remembered I had a leadership meeting from 3-6 and therefore couldn't. But that's okay. I don't need to stress about that either. I will run when I can. I will eat when I'm hungry. I will not worry about what I'm eating, except in the sense that I should be in the mood to eat it. Hello, sandwiches for lunch! I have missed those, and I can eat them in the car on the way to go walk! This could be a new thing. Quit dieting to get skinny and just DO.

I ran a 5k. . .and made it my bitch!

I truly had an awesome experience at that race. Not only is Girls on the Run a great organization that teaches girls the benefits of running, nutrition, and other life lessons, the race wasn't timed and finishing was the only goal! I was afraid at first that I wouldn't be as fit as I needed to be, but that fear was totally unfounded. Not only did Owen want to walk some (especially uphill--totally fine with me) but I actually felt like I could have run the entire way! I tried to be motivating and I think she had a really good time, which is what it's all about. BTW, in case I didn't mention it earlier, Owen is my 8 yr. old cousin. Super awesome kid.

So, in conclusion, this time I am going to keep running. The last 5k I did, I ran it, and then immediately quit running. Not this time! I want to keep building up my stamina and maybe even run another race sometime. A cheap one. I can run for free at home, I don't need to be paying $25-50 per race. This one was only $16. And I got to make my own tutu.